Thursday, January 24, 2008
(eyes half open.brain floating.)
so shag...neva really slp yesterday..mayb juz a very very short nap..abt 2 hrs in the noon?
Finally everytin is over, funeral of 5 days..a long 1..a tiring 1.But is all worthwhile ...coz is oredi the last journey of my great grandma.
Seeing my ah ma , ah yi and mummy cry until so sad..mks me heartache.
Today we went to the temple to cremate ... atmosphere is so..hmmpp..dunno how to describe. But i feel tat my great grandma is very fortunate oredi...she has 3 generations to send her off her last journey.n she pass away peacefully, she din suffered much pain or illness...
She will alwaz b in our memories.
1 thing i realize during this 5 daz..is the importance of marriage. Is at this point , when i realize that all my uncles play a impt role in comforting all my ah yi.
Esp. when my aunties are cryin..my uncles will b at their side, holding their hands , lending them their shoulder to cry on. i bet my uncles are sad too, but at this point of time, they have to act stronger!salutes to my uncles!
I really hope i choose a right husband...a bit fear of marriage now.
1 of my aunty wu had actually lost contact with us ofr a few years, appear this 2 daz. y does she wait until this kana occasion then wana come n meet us again?
y does she onli appreciate pple ard her..after 1 love 1 has left?
argh...!!!
i hope n pray history dun repeats again...lets have a peaceful n happy CNY!
10:18 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
hmp...NOT GOOD AT ALL!
i was really VERY VERY IRRITATED yesterday! VERY!
I really cannot tahan sumbody wu's not initiative , not considerate, selfish n fake!
ok....i have oredi predicted tat my daughter or son will b like tat in future...coz tats life.wateva u hate or dislike will cums to u !
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my great grandma pass away a few daz ago..n i am suppose to b at the funeral .. but i was sick! argh...i alwaz get sick at the wrong period of time :(
I get compassionate leave stria8 after my annual leave...think sister muz b damn upset with me now.coz staffs is already not enugh...
2008 aint gd 4 alot of us i think.
CNY is near...BUT cant feel the excitement at all....moody...almost every1 is moody...
10:49 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
-_-'' i cant slp ...... help! nowadaz i haven been slpin well....i dunno y ...
Have been slpin very late but wakin up early! argh!!! ending up sooo tired...but juz cant get into slp...keep turning on my bed..terrible!
Anyway... yesterday i went for my lasix check up... was sooo nervous n excited when the nurse check my cornea thickness...after the scan..i stria8 away ask her.." is my result better than the previous check up?"
she replied.." hmmmm.......( my heart beat faster) abt the same leh!!!"( ok..my heart drop!)
i knw my chance of doing lasix is low oredi....but i still hoping to do it....so i waited impatiently to tok 2 Doctor...
i keep praying" i have not wear contact lens for 1 mth oredi..its torturing ... 4 my persistence n determination,...pls let me b able to do lasix la!"
When the doctor call me in the room...i think i oredi breathing hard...
The look he gave me oredi lets me knw that ... i cant do lasix oredi loh...haix! disappointed! he told me tat my cornea is too thin...too dangerous to do it...tian ar! tat means i need to stick w contact lens n specs 4 life!argh!!!! sian....
After i went for the check up...i went shopping with my dear! whahaaa.....i think i get over it quite fast! coz i dun have to constrain myself in spending money oredi...quite shiok oso lah!
bought many things n i rebonded my hair! yeah!!! no need to tk cr of that curly hair anymore....so mafan!
but i spend alot lah....abit guilty now oredi!
n sumore i got myself 3 daz of AL....i need a break away frm the ward. Is too choatic...even now my colleague is complaining to me abt ward! hmp....i dunno how long i can tahan in that hell...
Almost every1 in the ward is breaking dwn, everyday so busy n choatic ... we have been wrkin hard n tryin our best everyday ... n yet..sister is not appreicating. INSTEAD we r getting complains n scolding .. THANK U ! tats more encouraging of us not staying in that hell!
:) few more mths pple! jia you!
12:33 AM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
ok...i juz heard sooo many shockin news..abit cannot tk it....
dunno how to react...
coz is sum sad but some happy.....i m like in the middle now.....
2008 doesnt seem to b a gd year..
my ward started off with all the complains...bernard's fren started off with relatives being admitted in hosp.
Even my auntie's dad is oso admitted.
n me????? argh....dun dare to think...............
1:04 PM
ok.....lets count...hmmm...17 hrs... i slept for 17 hrs b4 i can regain back my energy tat i spent for my nite shift...-_-'' how terrible!!!
1 of the reason y i was so shag, is becoz of the monthly women thinggy....
The other reason is that ....during my nite shift..other than lookin after 18 patients! i still have to tk care of a new student! faint! tired , tired....REALLY tired!
Plus tere's a lot of PR problems
1)parents getting demanding, complaining that cubicles are noisy! complaining y r so many babies cryinG ( LIKE AS IF I CAN CONTROL!!)
2)1 of my patient complaining to her mum tat her stomach is painful and we nurses arent doing anytin! When we had offered her medications n she refuses. Plus ONLI when the mum is with her then she feels the pain! When her mum is not ard, she was happily laughin n chatting with her frenz -_-.she did scans n show that there's NTHIN wrong with her..-__-''
3) 1 of the mum insisted on bringing home the child ... coz she n her husband is divorced n is worried that the husband will cum n grap the child away.
Settling all this things mks me headache! i am ONLI a nurse! i am not a security guard, wu can control the no. of visitors...coz they WUNT listen to me !
I am oso not a social worker wu needs to look into ur family problems! u r the 1 wu bring ur child to hosp!
I am oso not a sum1 wu u can juz accuse that i didnt do anytin for ur child when u doesnt knw the truth when u r not ard in the ward!
SO pissed off .... other then all this problems! my poor babies IV plugs r out!!! n i have to stay inside for more than 2 hrs juz to help the Drs set their plugs! Is is heart pain to see them pokin the babies SOOO many times n still unsuccessful.
When i told the dr in charge that the plug juz sent was really not wrkin..he juz insisted on keeping the drip going ..even though the plug arent gd!
Plus my student is really testing my patience! i am a well-known gan chiong spider...n she's totally opposite frm me! her actions n thinkin is ssssllllloooowwww........
she's very hardwrkin n obedient , but very passive. plus the things i taught her b4, she will still 4get...
Oredi so busy with all tat, i still have to tk meds with her, serve meds with her, mk sure all her reports write properly and teach her the things tat need to b done during nite shift.
n still .. my staffs is complaining y i din let my student help out with the parameters...argh! IF i ask her to do parameters, i dun think we can even go home on time.
Is so hard being SN nowadaz....play so many roles at a time.i wonder if i mk my preceptor so tired last time..
i am leaving soon.......phew!
11:49 AM
Thursday, January 03, 2008
*yawn* slpy slpy..... i wana slp sumore,....is soooo nice to slp this am...the weather is dark n windy...haiz! y do i have to wrk today...tian ar!
i dun wana c tat woman n bugging me " code blue code blue" again!
Its 10.27am now...03.01.08....wah! 3 daz of 2008 le...fast huh!
haven think of wats my resolutions...hmp...anyway i dun think i will b compliance to it, haha!
I juz wana get my lasix done ( hopefully) , if i cant do my lasix..tere's ALOT of things i wana get !
I wana save more money .... which is quite hard for me!
hm... i wana b a better nurse! as in... to care more for my patients , NOT to do n please wateva the parents want!
Wana spend more quality time with my parents!
Tats all i can think abt now..... :) jia you pple! new year ...new life!
10:25 AM
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