Saturday, October 27, 2007

:( have been sick since last week...so terrible.... n this am ... haven been having headache..haiz!!!
i feel tat i am getting more weak...cannot tk it!mum has been nagging that i din drink enugh water n have enugh fruits...OMG!!!
I hate drink PLAIN water n fruits...coz my stomach get easily bloated..!!plus! if i ONLI have the time to keep going toilet during wrk.
Y is body sooo mafan....
did a basic body check up at NUH yesterday...took my BP n realize that its slightly high than usual...repeat takin it 2 times -_-'' FAINT! i dun wan to have the hypertension...:( ... i got the high chance of having it , coz my grandpa, grandma n mum have it! tian ar! does it mean tat i have to b more careful with wat i eat??? i LOVE gd food ok!! PLUS I AM ONLI 23 YRS OLD!

I wana get out of 47 asap..really! i think if i continue wrkin there... my bp will shoot up higher faster...esp! if i take center cubicles...STRESS! having case reviews, plus sooo many scolosis patients...non-stop of sponging n assisting, more sick patients n have to wrk with uh hump uh hump!!

Counting down counting down....i have been counting down everyday ever since i start wrkin there...miserable!

11:31 PM

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

TERRIBLE....i almost give up yesterday .....oso can consider this morning lah...esp ard 1am-2am like tat....feel like cryin n juz call coordinator n tell her i wana go home.
My fever has been killing me...frm the start of the shift i keep shivering .... ate brufen but it doesnt help at all. so disappointed!
Was shivering ... with spiking fever n wrkin at the same time...whole body aching like crazy, keep coughing n having block nose.I think i look more sick then any of the patient i looking after yesterday.
At ard 1am i really cannot tk it n took 2 tabs panadol...luckily it wrks....ard 1/2 hr later ..keep sweating like hell...but felt giddy ..i think coz i din manage to eat much.
lucky on shift with me is pris , gam n amirah....phew! they really considerate..keep pusing me to the staff room to rest..offered to help me give the medicine due! n THANK GOD tere's onli 1 stable admission...
almost 1/2 of the shift..i am 1/2 awake loh....or instead 1/2 died!
neva felt so miserable while wrkin b4.

stria8 4 hrs later..my fever bk again....which is ard 4.30am......cannot tahan the shivering n took panadol again. After tat felt like vomiting!ARGGHH!!! really wana kill myself... think i overdose myself knw!
Sumore i took it with empty stomach...was squarrelling n waiting 4 the am shift pple to reach..after passing ....rush to tk cab home. Once i reach home...vomitted gastric juices.....FAINT...

The thing is 2nite i am suppose to meet my frenz 4 dinner...n 2moro i wana go my melayu frenz's huse....i have got program..n now is all spoiled!!!
Tian ar...... i need mc...but the GP is very stingy here....he alwaazzz..NO MATTER HOW SICK I AM...he will onli allow 1 day mc. Which is really hard for me to recover...
useless drs!

QIU MING AR!

1:29 PM

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

i am soooo tired.......both mentally n physically...really!!!!
i feel like giving up halfway ... juz throw all my casenotes, parameter boards n walk away.hide n corner n let no1 find me.
I dun wan to hear "aiping aiping" frm frm everywhere...frm the clerk, doctors, sisters...n my colleagues...like i am THE ONLI 1 taking care of 12 patients.
Frm head to toe.....i have to do para-s, sponging, changes ... alwaz double checkin everything ...if there's admissions, have to do para n orientation myself.
its juz like onli 1 SN taking care of 12 patients totally....yes! i hava a newbie with me to help me n wrk with me...but at the same time i have to teach her n go tru with her everytin .
I can b a gd teacher ..provided that the admissions n changes n parameters is not overwhelming wat!
If i am so busy with my own things oredi...how to expect me to teach her n go tru with her everytin??? is not like i have 2 mouth , 4 hands, 4 legs n 2 brains!!!

I miss being a SN 2 .. really ... so that some SENIOR wun have a excuse to bully me n juz throw me newbies anyhow they like.n assign themselves to light cubicle. clever huh?

I really dun mind takin a new staff... i like to teach.. but pls give me at least a junior to help can?
how to teach properly when i need to be busy with parameters myself???

i am tired.......really tired........

Sumore today after wrk oredi sooo shag... this flower still wana cum n tok to me...cant have peace in the mind. askin me regarding this difficult patient... n i think she tryin to ask me y my approach towards her is alwaz so bad.
But i din bother to tok back..coz oredi tired n din wana fight with her..coz i juz shut my mouth. Mayb she shld reflect on herself...how many times she get me into trouble since i start wrkin in 47...n how many times she caused me to cry. THEN she will knw y i dislike her so much!

Anyway today on the way ... saw 1 of my patient's mummy . she's nice... she share with me abt christ..n alot of testimonials...askin me to go bk to God again...hmpp...
her child actually stay in hosp quite long le...n i ask her abt the financial part if she could manage.she say she's currently using medisave...then i ask her"have u ever thot of going bk to wrk???" she answered" no need ...God will provide"
WAH! that ans shocked me... isnt that takin 4granted??? GOd say he will provide u unless u wrk hard isnt it??? hmmpp...dunno..haha!

i m gona meet den later...time of reliving my stress.....whole body is aching...
I M SERIOUSLY TIRED!!!!! GOD>>>GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!

4:32 PM

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Really dun feel like blogging nowadaz....coz u knw y ???
1 of the sister actually brought a article frm striats time to show us tat day...
It toks abt ..we can actually b sue ..if sumbody finds out abt our blog , n if our blog complains abt their company...
In blog..we r not suppose to tok abt our wrkplace..
HHMMppp...not as in "NOT SUPPOSE TO" but "BETA DUN" ... haiz....
n nowadaz blog has been a hot issue in CMI... is sad u knw!! really...now i find... is hard to keep things confidential online.
Blogging USED TO BE sumwhere , where u can type ur personal things..something like ur diary, ur personal thots or experience.... something that u would like to share among..onli ur lose fren, BUT NOW is not anymore....
sad!!!

BTW my ward has been a target for all the sisters nowadaz...coz our NM not ard.
have to do case review everyday..n i actually quite pity on 1 of the sister wu is suppose to present case everyday!
She kana bomback sooo many Qs ... felt quite embarrassing for her...but cant deny that , its time for her to refresh her memories n get some new updates.

Being call back to do am shift today....quite shag actually, shoulder aching now oredi.ARGH!
guess its getting more tough in my oredi...esp.. have to do case review everyday -_-''
Jia you ba pple!

5:32 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Dun worry that i will leave u ... i think i'm the one more worried that u will leave me...
i wish u could b with me every moment...but unfortunately time do clashes
i cant stand wasting time...i treasure every minute n secs... i juz wana do the things i like when eva i am free
I care alot of how u feel n think...thats y i reacted that way... i din wana lie to u ... thats y i am truthful ...
i am those pple that think too much.... that's alwaz the problem with me...but wat to do..i m born like tat....
But thinkin too much... has pros n cons...i becum a very thoughtful person...i think alot 4 u b4 i do anytin....
But it can becum easily agitated too...
sooo how??pardon me...
Juz wana let u knw how much i treasure u ... i knw if its me ... i will b worry too....
i love u :(

10:24 PM