Wednesday, March 28, 2007
:) had a great slp yesterday..havent been slpin well nowadaz....dunno y , mayb coz too stress ..
anyway went to have a shoulder n foot massage with lili n ah ting yesterday..shiok!!!hahaha!dint quite njoy the foot massage ..coz i am kinda scared of pain..hehe..but the shoulder 1 was gd! have been having shoulder aches, so i would rather the massage harder!haha
After that went to makan shanghi food with lili n den...erm..... to me, the food is quite ok ..its juz too vege n too much flour...which mks me feel quite full pretty fast! n knw wat? i get to taste duck tongue...OMG~ in hongkong show... it looks nice to eat... but it taste sooo raw n scary when i 1st taste it! YUCK!
Den din quite get use to the fd there...feel like puckin after a while...hahaaa!
Past few daz haven been wrkin with ah ting....which mks me feel like going to wrk. poor ger .. she juz went for operation for her tooth decay n now need to get bk to wrk asap to avoid any scoldin frm sister..haiz!she is skinny enugh, n now...onli can eat porridge! aiyoyo......
Today she is am shift with lili :( dun have any nice kakis at my shift le...sianz! Is so hard to pull myself to wrk ....my onli motivation is april oredi..GOING TO TAIWAN!this mth seems to pass SOOOOOOO S . L.O.W.....
Dun wana go wrk....Dun wana go home too...my mum still refuse to tok to me due to 1 clinic appt for my dad...argh!expect me to go dwn to clinic personally to get a earlier appt...y cant they juz ask me to call? they juz dun understand how hosp system goes... n now blaming me that i refuse to help....sick n tired of NUH.
9:42 AM
Friday, March 23, 2007
why RD seems to past sooo fast everytime..argh!today i need to drag my feet to wrk again...n this time round..i need to wrk continuously for 8 daz then i got my RD again..tahan tahan....
Anyway i get to meet up with some of my poly frenz yesterday...great time chatting... tokin abt the same old tin..wrk wrk plus wrk..wahahaha!but is everytime after tokin to me, i felt that i am not alone!
Is not easy being a nurse ANYWHERE..Everywhere is having shortage of staffs, n the management aint doing anyting....the saddest thing is that...news keep saying that we, nurses, are having increment..but wat NHG SN get is onli $30...waahhh!!!"ALOT HUH???"
my frenz frm SINGHEALTH is oredi SN1 since year starts .... n i am still stuck at SN2....koax!
I seriously regret choosing NUH....-_-''
sashi join me n widya later...end up onli 3 of us again...but is quite gd..coz its onli then widya start to open up n tok abt everytin....
i miss them...i truly do....i love sch times, is when i meet true frenz...
recently keep dreaming of sheila , shuxin ...blar blar blar..my old kakis........
haiz......i miss sch...
9:34 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Had a swim in the rain juz now..kana shiok...
Everytime i wana go 4 a swim..it juz rain, instead of swimming... i will juz turn bk n head home again. But this time.. i dun care oredi... i juz swim no doubt its raining heavily.I dun think the lifeguard bothers, coz its juz a few of us.
Juz thinkin tru .... n i hate myself now . i mean i knw that i am changing... but wat can i do? i cant control, i wish i could.
My temper USED TO BE very gd... i seldom throw temper...even if i am angry.. pple hardly realize. I USED TO BE very cheerful n positive, but now i can juz get moody n irritated quite frequently . i USED TO love nursing... but becoz in that hell...i start to have phobia going to wrk. i USED TO have lotsa frenz n treat every1 truely...but ever since i start wrkin... i hardly trust any1.i USED TO BE very generous...but in circumstances now..i have to b calculative...
I dunno is the environment i am in, that cause all this changes or its me myself....
OF CRSE i knw i am wrong at times... but sumtimes there's so many things store inside me ... that i dunno how 2 express out.since young i dunno how 2 say out things when i am unhappy...i will juz keep quiet, is not that i dun wan to..is VERY HARD to.
i knw it mks sum1 frustated .. u think i dun wish to kick off this bad habit? i am frustated too.
7:55 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
hmp.... kinda phobia to go wrk 2day after i team up with 1 of the staff that day... is like 1 person doing 2 persons job, lucky that day students is there is help me , if not i will juz faint tere, plus i m oredi not feeling well .
My ward rvc-ing more n more sick patients, n nowadaz i am alwaz assign to tk cr of them , i dun mind tkin care of them... but it really need gd teamwrk so that the day will pass easily .
I was so shag that day .. that i refuse to tok 2 any1... its oredi 3pm plus.. n most of my staffs is still inside the staff room having meetin, i am too worried 4 my sick cases .. so i came out.
One of my students is nice enugh to help me feed 1 child with SVT( some heart problem) feeding halfway the child heart beat increase to 223, but is kana normal 4 that child... my teamate got panick n inform a BLUR house officer , wu onli look at the monitor to assess the patient n push the E-cart stria8 away.!!!wah!!!!!! PISSED LOH!
i am oredi busy enugh n he still create this kana unecessary HO_HA!run to call a Medical Officer... Shejuz tk a look at the child n said its alrite..coz the child is feedin ..*faint*
Rushin tru the parameters... i help my teamate to look through changes n wrote the report...
i din knw wat she is busy with seriously, 1 case came frm ICU n she is stuck with that patient 4 pretty long, when the maid actually knw how to tk cr of that child.
Another ICU case n new admission came at the same time... i onli have a pair of hands...so i shouted her 4 help, but she is STILL with that patient.No choice but to ask my another colleague to help.
Aiya...is juz terrible, i am not blaming her, but she shld knw that we have alot of sick patient which we have to keep our pace faster.... nvm......argh!FAINT!
Juz hope that 2day will b beta!!!!!!
9:25 AM
Friday, March 02, 2007
traumatise...disappointed... bad...speechless...hurt...worried....pain...confused....tired...
wat will u feel if all this feelings mixed togather at 1 time???
9:32 AM
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