Tuesday, April 25, 2006
tian ar... i have go ssooo many weddings to attend....LOVE is in the air!wahhaaa!though i felt happy for them but i m worried abt my wallet too...having a BIG hole liaoz.n i am onli reachin 22 u knw....i have got more weddings to attend in future...stress...stress!
Dear told me he has got guard duty on may 1st....sad :( tat means i need to find sum1 else to attend the weddin with me .... i can predict i m gonna b sooo quiet ... i THINK i am still not very open to my colleagues...I M A SHY PERSON>hahahahaha!its true lah...
later going to meet DF n HT to shop shop then go on nite shift...hehe...hopefully i wun b too tired...i miss dear...
11:50 AM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
blowin my hair....updating my blog....chattin with frenz n dear at the same time...haha!multi task...li hai ba!!!time not enugh to use...bo bian .... muz use every secs wisely ..haha!
Went to visit grandpa 2day again.....his condition seems to b stable...but he alwaz doesnt give any acknowlegement when i tok 2 me . dunno if he knws i am beside him anot...i alwaz stand there n see him slp..haiz! Juz hope tat he will get well really soon ... so can fetch him home.
its really hard to plan to meet my frenz nowadaz...need to balance up my life oredi.how how how?
2moro i will have a noisy afternoon......coz i m wrkin with a noisy staff....tian ar!kill me ba!
11:17 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
:( i juz need to throw emotions here lah....so irritated by everytin...esp when i need to wrk later...
Find that its gettin more difficult to control my temper at ward.. esp with that sister J ard! she's really irritating.. so terrible that i actually shout at her yesterday!almost cried in front of her , but to show that i m not in the wrong , i controlled my tears! wahh....1st time i was REALLY angry n dint cry!
Yesterday i took care of 18 patients, got so many things to do, plus i have 1 student with me , i need to teach her n guide her all along , n yet that sister J keep pestering her to go dwn n buy food 4 her!y cant she use her legs n walk dwn to kopitiam n buy ??? BLOODY HELL! She asked my student for like 3-4 times , i was soo pissed off, coz i cant get my wrk done, plus my student cant concentrate her wrk n i juz shouted" sister!u wan her to tk care of patients , n yet u keep askin her to go dwn n buy food" ooppsssyyy!!!i din expect myself to b so daring ! i actually shouted at her in front of alot of pple! But at that moment ... i really cant tk it anymore!
becoz of this she bring me inside the room n lecture me ... say ALOT of stupid things!she claims that she need to stay in the ward to answer all calls ( according to the ward clerk , she din even help to ans 1 call ) , n she need to stay in the ward to tk cr n help out the nurses ( which she dint at all.... she only keep going ard askin who is going dwn to buy food 4 her .I felt ashamed having this kana sister loh! i told her how busy i was , n explain y i was so angry... n wrds she throw to me again n again was " where's ur time management??" IDIOT! try tkin 18 patients ... need to finish everytin before 5 hrs .. n see what she can do.BLOODY HELL! n she accused me sayin that i dint allow my juniors to go for break!PLS LOH!all of them went for break except me ok!aarrgghhh!!!ANGRY !
my grandfather still in hosp...but beta oredi...all thanx to those wu msg me n concern abt me grandpa...i guess he is beta .. responding abit! hehe.sumtin bad is my aunty said that she is not going to tk cr of my grandpa anymore, she wan to send him to old folks home. my mum keep thinkin of ways to keep him at our huse.. but nobody will b free to tk cr.we all need to wrk, if no wrk , no $...then my sis cant study.haiz!n my aunty scolded my mum sayin that she is using "wrk" as an excuse not to tk cr of my grandpa...tain ar!this kana wrds can cum out frm that aunty... n she wana push all responsibilty juz becoz she wana go oerseas n play!she's now eager lookin for 1 cheap old folk's hm for my grandpa """"SOOOOOO HELPFUL""""
1 problem after another.........sick of living!!!so many irritating pple on earth...ugly side of human...
10:55 AM
Monday, April 17, 2006
Sianz!mood damn bad now...coz later got to wrk with SUM1.....sum1 trerribly noisy!sure can have peace in mind...haiz!
So many things in the brain recently ... can feel the burden as i grew older...hate to grow up..but have to.NO CHOICE!my grandfather was admitted 2 days ago..he fell dwn, guess frm staircase, got fracture in skull, n affected the brain, he's having fits.n he cant go for operation, coz he's too old.Seeing him lying on the bed , with oxygen mask, his eyes though staring at him , but dunno if he's really concious a not.His mouth with a tube , he's tryin to push it out with his tongue, his hands has no strength that he cant even fight with doctor when they need to poke him with needles.10 days ago , i went to visit him at his huse, he's totally fine, still show me his bro's pictures, laughin at me when i said i wana bring him to china, n now he's lying on the bed , totally helpless.my heart aches SO MUCH...when he gets well, i hope to bring him hm to tk cr of him , but there's so many things to consider abt , my mum , dad n me need to wrk, wu's going to tk cr of him? n my huse facilities, need to change alot to b able to acommedate to his needs, his pampers , feeds, medications...blar blar blar..need $.how?haiz!i dun wan to let him being taken care of my aunty...she surely torture him...i dislike her....
10:23 AM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
cough....COugh ...COUGH!!!!CAN DIE LOH!!!!!wrk n cough at the same time is really so difficult...sumtimes can feel tat my lungs is gonna come out of my throat at anytime ... keep feeling nausea...haiz!
Anyway 2day is a ermm.......dunno use wat word to describe...juz use a simple wrd...its a TERRIBLE day!early in the morning i open up my eyes....n to my horror, its oredi 0705am!!!SHIT LAH!BLOODY HELL...i was late 4 wrk loh..nxt moment i hear my hp ringing liao...the ward called up!gosh!lucky is Huiting passing over to me...i cant imagine if its any other 1 of my other collaegues..they will kill me i guess!huiting is really sweet enugh to wait 4 me to reach the ward...tian ar!took a cab dwn..but i am still late for an hr.....traffic was damn slow loh...DISAPPOINTING!
Then after wrk....went to bukit batok with my preceptor...she waiting 4 her hubby...i waiting 4 dear...she was nice tat she accompany me to wait 4 my dear although she could actually go hm 1st....sat at coofee bean n chit chat.Then when it was time to meet my dear..she said she wana buy otah....she ordered quite alot loh....so have to wait 4 her, bu ren xin leave a pregnant woman alone tere.
When meet up with dear...haiz!another Bad thing of the day happen.He was oredi angry that i was late...no chance to explain myself n he had throw all his anger towards me.SAD!
Hope 2moro will b a beta day , no more cough n lateness pls!haha!promise him not to have cold drinks....which is pretty hard lah..in this humid country...but will TRY loh!WTD?
11:40 PM
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