Friday, January 27, 2006
:( my eyes is swollen like ... goldfish .. so ugly n uncomfortable..tian ar!have been cryin for 2 nights...haiz!tired xia!useless hoh?i find myself gettin more n more crybaby nowdaz..i wanted to b strong, wan to tahan n juz pull tru these 3 yrs in NUH ... but juz cant control my tears .
No matter how hard i try to be the best i can be, pple will still b unhappy abt it , there will still be problems or trouble popping out, i am really a jinx at wrk .Have been thinkin of ways , how 2 get out of this job oredi, sister wun fire me so easily , the onli way is that i quit n pay off my bond, but where to get the $$$???
Yesterday i told my parents abt wat happen in hosp , how unhappy i am at wrk, in the end they mk me cry more.
They keep asking me to curry flavour sister , buy her tins / sweet tok , BLOODY HELL!!!the reason y i din choose business crse is becoz i hate "fake" pple, n now in nursing profession oso need to b like tat izzit? They say when i meet different kind of pple , muz knw how 2 react to them different, this is a cunning world , have to learn to b act smart .
After hearing all these , i hate the world more, does every1 need to b fake to get wat they want?i imagine myself sweet tokin n curry flavouring that idiotic sister, the thot of it oredi mks me wana puke!!!i hate myself for being so weak , careless n blur liao...i dun wana hate myself more 4 being so fake lo!
Frm young they onli teach me that i got to b honest , but now i c so many pple lie juz to protect themselves, after lying , they dun feel guilty de ma?i tried that b4 , the feeling sux!Y God create human to b so selfish?
I MISS SCH!!! I really miss sch, in sch ... my frenz alwaz say i am a kai xin guo / apple in pple's eyes, but now i think i am a bittergourd .i dun mind the pay and how busy i am at wrk, i juz dun like the stress n unfairness.i still have 2 yrs plus to go..... hope i will still b alive n my character will not change as how i am in sec sch....
9:02 AM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
oh yah oh yah...i 4got to share sumtin with u guys....4 those wu pray 4 my colleague...thank u thank u ...God will blessed u abundantly ... coz she's conscious now...amen!she's imprving!hehe!so excited abt it ..went to visit her tat day ..she's knoding her head, kickin her legs to attract attention..whahaa!n her % of 02 that she's dependant on is decreased!yeah!!!!*clap clap* continue to pray 4 her ok!really look 4ward to c her walk out of that ICU ward soon......
12:04 AM
Monday, January 09, 2006
drain out!!!!2day is juz a terrible n horrible day...i juz thank God that LiLi is on with me 2day...if its HX .. i will hang myself to death ..seriously!!!LiLi do help me ALOT .. she help me with a very ill pt , the pt is on urine catheter , but hardly drain out anytin , so Dr M reinsert it again .. n realise that the pt actually has no urine.. but they are running a drip that is harmful to pt if he does not pass urine .. so we change the pint of drip immediately.Then suddenly his BP start droppin n dropping..we run N/S .. but still cont to drop, he was pretty disoriented .. sayin weird weird things.. n 1 idiotic new doctor juz stand at his bedside staring me n Lili doing all the things n blockin our way..wat a "helpful" Dr!!!
In the end he was transfer to ICU..haiz!i was not onli busy with him lah...another tiny winny bady ....with onli 2 kg , then pale immediately when we give our milk feeding juz a little bit late..the doctors were shocked n did some blood takin immediately , then after my AN gave the baby milk..she ok oredi..wat a picky child.
Another pt ...also a very very small Kid ... keep vomiting n vomiting , suppose to b on 3 hrly feeding,Dr informed , but they say to cont feeds.So we feed lah..i did suctioining 4 the child but hardly anytin suck out...until the child vomit out yellow fluid then the Dr say to stop feeding.
Taking care of this 3 very sick patients can oredi mk me like a crazy women...running here n tere , n i still have another 9 patients to take care of...tired...so tired..which mks me shout at 2 idiotic Drs 2day...until now i still think they deserved to b shout at!hahaha!they are juz demanding loh!there is onli so few pts n they expect us to do things that fast...they onli knw how to tok,they so clever ,go n do the tins they wan themselves
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i was so busy n i can predict that i will end up going hm late lah..so i msg my dear to not pick me up frm wrk ... but he thot that i dun wish to c him..n was rather worried abt me..whahaha!u called me but i din pick up , coz was too busy , n he was upset abt it..whaaha!he TTM loh...but it shows how much he cares n treasure me ..which mk my heart really melts..keke!
thanx dear!if its not u .. i dun think i will b still able to smile immeiately after wrk. thank u thank u ..i appreciate u alot !!!!MUACX!
11:13 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
phew!!i m on PH 2day...lucky me ... Yesterday was quite ...nono..i shld say its very choatic in the ward, can actually feel the tense-ness once i reach the ward..n huiting keep telling me "die ar die ar!2day sure die 1" which mks me feel wrse.tryin to an wei myself say ..."no prob , sure b a smooth day "haha!
We got sum lecturing frm sisters again yesterday ... sayin that our PCAs n ANs has been doing jobs that they aint suppose to do..haiz!n WE RNs shld do...tian ar!they r juz helpin us loh..n so far .. i dun c any problem they create while they r helpin us ...n sisters expect us to serve diet 4 patients too...ridiculous!then meanswhile we b the pantry lady,b ANs , b Doctors , b educator, b counsellor or even b a cleaner rite?CTI leh!They alwaz expect us to do sooo many tins n expect us to do it perfect sumore...i juz cannot tahan when 1 of them said" if u all are not doing bedside nursing .. then i dun understand wat the hell u all are busy with ?" koaz!sumore say us nurse casenotes...y dun they try taking cases , they onli know how 2 compare frm the past n now.ok..wateva!higher rank alwaz got the say!
anyway we have 5 RNs ( 1 of them is very very new)on duty yesterday ... me n huiting went dwn to xray deparment .. so left with siti n dong dong n catherine running the ward!tain ar!i pity siti man!coz she need to tk care of 24 pts..she cover up 4 me n huiting..i felt sooo bad!she's oredi not feeling well.dong dong need to tk cr of catherine..as she's really new !
siti very li hai loh!she manage to look after all our pts....*clap clap* really wana thank her!!!!i m so proud to have her as my preceptor!hahaha!dong dong oso help alot!!!lucky both of them r with us..if not we die loh!!!thank God thank God!
k lah...i got to prepare to go meet ah ting liao...tat ger ar!feel like spanking her backside....so indecisive!
10:04 AM
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