Monday, October 31, 2005

:) *grinning frm ear to ear* hahaha!i m soooo happy...keke...
Yesterday was really GREAT! i went to sentosa .... OMG! the marvalous thing is that those pple wu r with me are .... Mr ' B' , den,mei,dine n sam...wooohhoooo ... its really very rare chance that i could actually gather my dear n my close frenz togather knw!!! feel kana weird at 1st lah... but subsequently hai hao lah....hey!sam ! thanx 4 toking to him..keke!
Anyway i love my yesterday ..how i wish the time stop... feel VERY contented with juz this few frenz n him... tats enugh actually..keke
we went to play the new go kart ,aiyo!i mk a fool out of myself lah...as usual i was so "clever" tat i drove up the small hill...i juz have no sense of direction..i beta dun learn driving in future .. i think i will kill alot of instructor..wahahaha!it was pretty fun...i was thinkin of how charissa will drive n wat stupid actions she will do if she is with us ...sure very funny 1..aiya..i miz her lah
after the go kart ... we juz went to the siloso beach ,mei n me n nard managed to swim to the opposite small island.... it brings bk all the pass memories..i felt so lucky knowin mei...coz after soo many yrs... so many of my so called "close " frenz cum n goes..accept her... we seldom meet nowadaz but we knw tat we r alwaz tere 4 each other..rite mei?eee...my hair standin ...CTI
aaahh...i felt so fortunate yesterday ... not every1 can have bf n best frenz at the same time 2gather knw... mei , den , sam , dine...THANK U ! n kana worry 4 dine lah.... she going to tekong...dine..jia you! i knw u can mk it !!

9:21 AM

Saturday, October 29, 2005

My eyes is like half open now....i m really slpy..onli slept at 12 yesterday .... i seriously have no idea y i cant slp well nowadaz...slp late but automatic wake up so early...sick man!n i am having headache now...haiz!mayb i look 4ward to sunday too much ..haha!
when was the last time i went out to play???wahhh......i cant even remember man...hopefully sunday wun b a disappointment man!
anyway 2day is 1 of my colleague last day at wrk...n after this she;s gonna b on maternity leave..TIAN AR!sad man...gd staffs are leaving...:( surely miz her a lot 1...she treat me quite nice...
yesterday tok 2 dear .. aiyo...he is reallu upset abt the xtra guard duty..haiz!wu will b happy to get all these shit rite..i tried to cheer him up....but think i m quite bad at that lah..which mks me feel ... hmm...useless?helpless?haiz!dunno lah...dun wana think until so far...as long as he's bookin out on sunday!!!aha!

9:00 AM

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

gosh...i m VERY tired lah....but no matter wat i m not gonna have nap 2day!
yesterday i juz felt like drinkin coffee at noon..so i juz simply have a can..n in the end , i onli fell alsleep at 1am. GOSH.!!! i was rowing here n tere on the bed tryin very hard 2 slp..but juz couldn't ..so torturing!n i woke up at 5am today.. hao lei ar!sumore 2day SO busy man...the doctors rounds onli start at 9am n they expect us to do all changes by 12.Doctors are juz a batch of inconsiderate pple..
i dun understand y things alwaz happen when i was abt to passover.... so suay 1!dunno is i suay or the person tat i pass over to is suay lah!Everytin go on smoothly .. until 12pm when 1 of my patient suddenly complain of shortness of breath n chest pain...immediately i paged for the doctor lah..but he onli return my call after i paged 3 times!"thank u very much ar"!
n my AN is unhappy with me coz i was not with the pt..."HELLO"!!!i have onli 1 body ... i need to paged for the doctor when the ph is at the counter n i got to attend to the pt...so where shld i place my body??? argh!!!
The pt looks really sick n tere's nthin i could do...0xygen oredi put up 4 him..his BP n all are normal.... i could onli help him hold the plastic bag when he vomits...haiz!i knw i am useless lah!but wat do the AN expect man...THERE IS NTHIN I CAN DO UNTIL DOCTOR CUMS N TELL ME WAT TO DO WAT! WTH!
Then the doctor ask for a urgent chest xray ... so i called up the radiologist loh...n i told him that 1 of my pt needs urgent chest xray ... after 1 min... he asked me "how urgent it is ?" wah lau!!!how he wants me to measure??? onli after i told him pt is shortness of breath he juz said ok ... n put dwn the ph..
immediately after i put dwn the ph...my AN n doctor..bugging me abt the xray again...wah lau!they all rush me 4 wat...as if i got the machine..i hope i have 1 loh..n they insist me to call the radiologist to rush him again...tian ar!is easier to b said than done loh...the 1 in the end kana scolding is not them wat.they are worried 4 the pt...so am i ... but they cant juz put all burdens in me like tat wat...unfair!tats the idiotic part abt being a SN.
actually i pity my colleague (huiting) more lah...coz she took over this case after my shift...plus she took the high dependent cubicle...more jialat...plus the other colleague wu pass to her neva get her own wrk dwn...so add on to her wrk scope..poor ger!
haiz!i wish i m not like tat colleague... i hope to have all my wrk done b4 passing over...
anyway 2day is wed le....3 more daz!!

6:37 PM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

*yawn* juz woke up n have a bath...but still slpy...hehe!have been very busy this 2 daz in the ward ... coz i m taking the busy cubicles AGAIN ( cubicles that need close monitoring) ...horrible! n its me n huiting passin report to each other AGAIN! y we alwaz end up so suay!
it can really kill me juz takin care of this cubicle... horrible~ but in my heart i do really want to put my greatest TLC to 1 of my patient loh! the child is so poor tin lah ... he is onli ... i think 6 yrs old... but oredi diagnoses having a lymphoma ...i hope is bening ( cancer tumour) i m kana worried 4 him..he is a very obedient n gd child...haiz!
n i have no idea y this cubicle parents are alwaz the picky 1s...n is pretty hard to handle when every pt is so criticle n needs super much attention... aiya...anyway there goes 1 day again!HURRAY! 4 more daz ...juz 4 more daz!i keep tellin myself to perserver ... coz i know he's more tired than me ... going tru more hardship than me ... n of crse my parents going tru alot too...so i got to b more stong n kan kai dian..(sumtimes juz need to complain abt the sis J ... she makes every1's day horrible...i wonder in 1 day ,how many pple curse her ..haha!)
it's onli when sum1's not by ur side than u will tend to treasure more n realise that person's importance... mayb that's y we r treasuring each other so much...but kana torturing lah......

6:48 PM

Sunday, October 23, 2005

i'm so bored lah!i am SERIOUSLY very bored!!!!i tried keep myself occupied le..but still.. too much time lah!aiya! sumbody say wana go out with me , in the end cannot mk it !kind of disappointed loh!argh!
tian ar!i'm gonna b bored for 1 more week....cannot tk it cannot tk it! i would rather go wrk 2day man...

6:25 PM

Friday, October 21, 2005

i'm so tired ... though 2day i juz float ard in the ward..whahaha!i m suppose to go for SN meeting ...so i wrk 8-4pm 2day .. n i merely did anytin today ....i spent almost 2 hrs in the MRI sitting dwn ... lookin after my sedated patient...almost fell asleep loh!
then when its 3pm...i went for my SN meeting n realise tat its last min cancelled n that sister "j" din inform me...she is so free ard the ward ,keep pin pointing at pple's mistake but hardly get her own job done . End up i have to call another sister to know tat the SN meeting is actually cancelled. she's juz a useless bug lah!the most ridiculous thing is tat ..she keep going ard askin students to buy food 4 her when she knws tat her own staffs now refused to buy food 4 her becoz of her stupid attitude...serve her rite!she's wrse then a beggar man! gosh!i m being too mean...haha!but i juz cant help it lah!4give me...
2moro is sat ... n i m wrkin afternoon shift...actually i m happy abt tat .. coz i dun have anywhere to go anyway..BUT sunday i m off :( i tried askin mei n den ... but both are busy...haiz!i kind of give up callin huimei out oredi ...she's alwaz busy.our schedule alwaz clash ... n my poly frenz..haiz!4get it..every1 is busy with own life. I M SOOO BORED LAH! think i will really b happy when he book out... guess i m kana get use to it without him...

我已经渐渐习惯忙碌把生活填满和自己分享晚餐试著活得更理所当然我已经渐渐习惯对感情顺其自然只是我还不明白失去你的天空为何看来不那麼蔚蓝相爱到了解的默契怎能说忘记就忘记我想我已经习惯你

6:34 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005

haiz!2day is morning shift ... n i'm juz bk frm wrk!kana tired lah..coz not enugh slp...
BUT 2day is not tat busy....so hai hao lah!onli kana scolding by a BIG FAT doctor 4 nthin...he claims tat i neva finish my wrk .. BUT the fact is he neva ask me to do loh!irritating!!
No need to mention sister "J" is alwaz our ward's hottest topic...coz she alwaz make a big fool out of herself..2day she did sumtin ridiculous again!
The story starts..... my colleague "S" volunteer to buy food 4 us at kopitiam...n she's so kind tat she even ask sister "J" wat she want her to get...here's their conversation..
sister J : " oh !u wana buy ar?aaa...i wan... yong dao fu "
colleague S : ok sister ...
sister J: i wan i wan .. u know the mushroom , n the roll ....n i wan vege...
colleague S: sister..wat roll is tat???
sister J : u knw the roll...aiya( then she start drawing 4 her) aiya...u juz take the most corner 1 n .. i wan fishballs..tat mks it 6
colleague S : ok sister!

when my colleague is back...that sister "J" rush to the staff room n start eatin...after her was me...i overheard their conversation again! when i heard wat sister "j" say ... i ju cannot tk it n alk out of the staff room..she was apparently blaming my colleague for buyin wrong ingredients for her...n she link tat to medication error...RUBBISH! she neva even thank her 4 buyin her food..but instead blame her..by how she describe want she wants..she thinks my colleague can understand?sumore she's a philipino .. i dun even get wat she wans man!MORON!n she blame her in front of so many pple...n tat mks my colleague so embarrase n cried!GOSH!
she alwaz do tat...mayb her motivation in life is to mk pple cry n embarrased..cannot stand her!

i am not gonna c him for 2 weeks again...haiz!when he is at BMT n back from field camp he told me " i m BK! no more this kana things in future anymore ...coz i m gonna b private !!"after he becum private ... he went for field camp again ...when he's back he said the same thing too...
n now...he is going to b confine for 2 weeks again..:( sianz....

4:42 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

*burg*... hehe.....feeling so full now..juz ate maggie mee..keke..juz very sick n tired of the food outside...lazy to buy oso...n i promised dear to b able to onli spend $300 this mth...
Btw i went out with dear on sun.... n sumtin VERY embarrassing happen !tian ar!i will neva go chinese garden again...it kana affect me emotionally ..til now ok!abit kuang zhang...but is true lah....is like..aiya!dunno how 2 describle :(
This 2 daz have been sooo busy in the ward lah...monday was terrible... my colleague burst out cryin...really pity her..she remains me of how i cried when i 1st took 12 cases...i cried too.C! this ward is terrible ..alwaz mk pple cry onli.haiz!the wrk tere is juz too hactic ... everyday wrk like a robot...none stop 1...my eyes itchy ,wana rub oso no time loh!
plus having 2 bloody sister onli mk our wrk more stressful! dunno wat happen to Miss 'R' nowadaz....she keeps wanting us to shift patients frm 1 bed to another....bloody hell...if she cant use her brain to think n understand how much wrk we need to do n how much time we need to spend when we transfer a patient ... can she juz use her eyes to c how busy we are ??? aiya....think tere's sumtin wrong with my construction of sentence 2day...my brain to wrkin well anymore...i m juz very irritated by the sisters lah!she alwaz expect us to do wateva she says...but she will neva put herself in our shoes n understand y her expectation is not met!selfish PIG!
n the other Miss 'J' is back....haiz!once i step into the ward n hear her voice...i can oredi sense tat it will b a bad day 4 me ...true enugh tat day was terrible !which is MONDAY ... haiz!she's jinx man! i having even start my shift yet..i oredi heard frm pple abt her stupid behaviour...she's huggin a pt's clinical chart so tightly tat no1 could find it...the rest of the ANs where searching high n low 4 it ... i wonder wats she up to...crazy!n once she's back ... she keep buggin me n huiting n pris abt our checklist...haiz!how i wish she juz vanish...
ok...enugh of complains....say sumtin erm...meaningful..haha!i went to send food n medi to sum1 today....poor tin..he's sick n no1 buy fd 4 him.dreamt of him last nite..n is pretty fun...cooll.....hahaha!he's juz like a bro n gd fren to me...

6:18 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i m sooo tired n lazy..hehe!juz back frm wrk....actually is 1 hr ago lah!n i havent bath yet..kekeke....juz allow me 2 slag awhile lah!i was SO hungry , i din tk my lunch until 4pm ... haiz!as usual...... 2day is sooo terrible...is So busy in the ward..early in the morning ,my patients are oredi giving me bad headaches...1 of my patient is suppose to go for PSLE 2day n her hand is on cast..the mum request 4 the trimming of cast b4 going to the exam this morning which starts at 8am . N she onli requested for it yesterday midnite..how blur can she get? n the plaster room onli opens at 9am n she expects pple to trim the cast 4 the daughter b4 8am??? i know how impt PSLE is ..n the teachers are oredi tere waiting 4 her...so i kept paging 4 the ortho doctors to come n fill up the form or at least write a memo 4 her to excuse for the PSLE .. BUT to my disappointment ... the idiotic ortho doctor refused to ans back my page...end up i have to call the medical officer .when the doctor came ... He still got the cheek to ask me if the patient is on cast or backslab ... WTH ...he is the doctor not me!he shld b the 1 wu knws beta !!! #@@^%&^**(&(*(&*&^*&^*&^*^O** After the ortho doctor kana Questioned by the plaster room pple...he finally paged for the registra n find out tat the cast was actually not allowed to b trim!WTH! mk me do soo much tin n in the end say it cannot b done...n the mum agreed to let the child have the exam....without trimmin the cast( i juz couldnt express how much frastuation i have lah)

After settling with this difficult patient ... is oredi doctors round...n all my case notes n IMR is flyin ard becoz of the medical students!!! They are juz irriting lah....in the end kana scolded by Dr mas!haha!Thank God 4 her man!If not i wuldnt dare to scold them ... while following rounds tere are sooo much distraction ... 1 of the parents keep wanting to speak to doctor ,coz his child wana have PSLE n insist on going hm ... so i have to page 4 doctor again!i hate tat ... coz they reply so slow... n the 1 wu get scoldings frm parents is alwaz the nurses.then i have got the other patient wu needs to tk bloods n prepare IV 4 him.... at the same time ... another pts mother insist on wanting me to do dressing 4 her baby immediately...
GOSH! i have onli got a pair of hands .... i asked if my assistant nurse could help me do the dressing ...she juz ans " u do lah" coax!n she stand tere n watch me do.....ARGH!
immediately after i settle dwn with the IV n dressing ... my patients parents are haunting me to get discharge...lucky huiting help me out with the discharges.... i thot i could settle dwn n write my report..BUT tere's another patient back frm op tat needs to transfer to PICU ... n i have to go dwn to OT personally n pass report at PICU...i almost burst into tears lah! When i m bk to ward is oredi 2 plus..n i onli get to pass report by the....sorry huiting...i try to finish everytin ASAP liao.lucky i get everytin settled b4 passin to her...phew!if not she will b stress..hahaha!

actually 2day suppose to meet aihui..but last min she say she too tired to meet up..anyway i am tired too....rather slag at hm now...
BTW yesterday i msg a fren...ermxx... a fren wu can consider lost contact ... i dunno wat problem she has tats so difficult to share with but juz hope tat she's alrite...
i juz hope tat i can b tere when she need sum1...coz i understand how badly 1 can feel when u need sum1 n tere''s no1 u can turn to.
i have been feeling beta nowadaz... mayb i prayed nowadaz..hahaha!God is alwaz the best ...

5:29 PM

Monday, October 03, 2005

i luv my past 2 daz.... coz he's ard.... everytin seems soo gd when he's in s'pore... n of coz credits to God too...i have been so depressed tat i prayed so hard everyday n i believe he's listening to me n answerin my prayers! Amen ...
Went to ah ma huse yesterday...n get to c all my cousins...wah...realize all my young cousins growing up fast ... time flies n i am oredi a wrkin adult...no more a teenager ... xianz!n i guess is very natural for cousins' relationship to get further apart as we grow up.miz those innocent n childish daz..keke!
Juz hope tat our bond will alwaz b close n .... pray tat 2day will b a smooth day lah...my colleagues have been tellin me i look so stress at wrk which cause them to b stressful too...ooppss....i didnt mean it ,i juz couldnt help it!
2day i will b fine....coz tere's 2 great guys in my heart!haha

10:42 AM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

yesterday meet up with sashi,veron,siti n syn ..... they really make me feel comfort alot!!! they make me realize tat i m not the onli 1 suffering..... they r suffering too, they dislike their ward oso... n veron is almost under the same situation as me .... her colleagues aint frenly to her too,they oso felt that they have no frenz when their wrkin...y hosp pple sux huh!we kept counting dwn for 3 yrs...n we promise each other tat 3 yrs later after we quit ,we gonna meet up n celebrate!
GOSH.... now i knw y no1 wana b nurse... i even heard tat aihui n fuisian aint happy in their wrkin environment too.now whenever i feel alone...i will think of veron n frenz... n I m gonna pull tru these 3 idiotic years with them !

9:19 AM