Saturday, July 30, 2005

haiz....2day is a sian day....have been having SOB (shortness of breath) .... almost cant fall asleep...until this morning then decided to c doctor ..coz pretty worry that its episode of asthma!its scary knw!
but after c doctor..he said its not lah..juz sum blockage along the airway.... meet up with my dear..BUT he's sick too.tian ar!bacteria is everywhere!
2moro got to b bk to the stress place again....cant tahan ... my mum keep sayin if she got the $ , she will juz pay bk my bond... though is kana immpossible lah...but it touches me when she mention tat!
guess.....haiz!nvm....ok ..bye!

7:56 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

i hate 2day!!!SERIOUSLY!!!actually haven been happy since i start wrk ... everday is fear to me .. have to pray so hard b4 i wrk .Pray tat everytin will go smoothly 4 me.., tat God will grant me a good preceptor who is patient n willing to teach...tat i will have the wisdom n availability to catch things fast n remember wat i have learnt .., n last of all but most impt is...my ward sisters's will not cum n bug me ..But guess my prayer today din;t wrk...today is like hell to me...
today i team up with my pregnant nurse ..lets call her "Ami" ...i took care of 12 patients n she takes care of 6...at 1st i was quite fearful abt it lah...coz so many patients ma..but ..after a while ..i juz tk it as a challenge lah.So....after listening to the report..i did the routine tins lah!i am mentally prepared tat i will b damn busy n wun have time 4 break ... i have 3 dressings to do....got to go ICU pass report..12 patients changes to make..12 case notes to write..call bells to attend to...blar blar blar...
i was REALLI stress up the whole morning...another nurse ask me 2 smile abit ..i juz tell her "xiao bu chu"haha!pls loh...stress means stress...how 2 smile when i dun feel like it?even if i smile is a fake 1 loh..y muz i force myself doing tat?
anyway after i managed to finish writing most of my reports...its oredi time to pass report.At this moment ...the sister is here to bug me again...she wants me to do a pt's dressing ( coz got new method of doing...she wants me to learn n do, n the wound nurse is tere to teach )haiz!when i m damn tired ... without my lunch n haven even past report....ok fine..i juz go n do lah!when i walk to the pt's bed oredi..she ask me call nurse "ami" here too...WTH!cant she said it earlier?when i walk to tere liao ..she expect me to walk back n call her again..FINE...i walk n call "ami"she says she will cum later.so i cont with my dressing lah...
After my dressing ... i rush to pass my report ... n after my report... i thot i finally have the time to breath properly n relax my muscles abit...BUT sister says she wana tok to me again!(we are along the corridor)so i juz walk to her loh..n she say she wana give me a feedback..n to my disappointment ... she says tat the wound nurse said i showed her attitude!i promise n i swear ,i neva ok!n sister start askin me "wat's the prob with u ?"i juz kept queit...coz i din know wat to say..instead is wrds juz cant get out of my mouth.then she ask again..."y u like tat?"i juz replied "i got bad headache"

ping: "i got bad headache"
S: "ok...but u muz b sensitive u knw..even though u r not feeling well...u muz b aware of ur non-verbal ques, pple might not know n u got to b sensitive, u muz smile"
ping : ( speechless) ( but staring at her ...pretty angry actually...she juz dun understand how busy we were ..how stress i m , n how helpless i felt at times..n still expect me 2 smile...as if i wrkin as a bar ger)
S: " n ar ... juz now when i ask nurse "ami" to cum ..she doesnt wan to cum..i ask the rest of the nurse..no1 bother .. i m so disappointed with u all..."
ping : (speechless again) stop staring at her... starin at the floor now...coz c her face wana puke.
1stly , nurse "ami" doesnt want to cum coz she has 1 patient wu juz went missing ..n is most prob an abscondment case.she's looking 4 the patient ...which is a valid reason y she doesnt cum 4 tat SIMPLE dressing!
2ndly , the rest of the nurse doesnt bother abt her , is becoz they need to pass report ... u cant expect the nxt shift not to listen to report n go off like tat rite?
3rdly , she shld b disappointed in herself 1st!coz she is the 1 wu teach us to piorities our wrk but now..she's the 1 ruining it!
4thly , u shld b scoldin them not me..coz i did go when u ask me to...y am i gettin the lecture now?
S : " then ar!i knw u neva go 4 ur break ..y?"
ping : ( this time round.... my blood level shoot up high .... pushing my tears out , even neva go break oso kana question )
S: " y i alwaz tok 2 u all...u all cry ar?very bad impression 4 me know!"
ping: ( mks me cry even more...she think i cry juz wan others to pity me ,WTH....she thinks i can control my tears izzit..she thinks i wana cry in public ...along the corridor n let every1 c izzit)
S: " y u like tat? tired? ( i shake my head) stress? ( i sacasticly say "kind of")
S: " y stress? how many patients u take today ? tats y i told u ..time management is very important ... "
ping : " 12 paitents ... do all the dressings , n "ami " help me with the IVs
S: " i understand tat u r stress .. n this is juz the beginning .. c !u haven even touch on IVs
ping : (speechless...busy cryin...n thinkin if she understand i m stress, she wun say all these things to me n expect me to do so much!she expects me n my frenz 's wrk to b excellence when we r onli 4 daz old in the ward ....n NOW ...muz smile all the time...to please pple !)WT*%^$&*(*^$#
S : " i tell u ar .... u cannot b influence by the other staffs in the ward coz they r either lazy or attitude problem...tats y my goal is to cultivate u all to b a gd nurse..but u all alwaz react like tat...n dun apprecitate"
ping : (haiz!c! gossiping her own staff..wat a gd sister she is!i think she ought to reflect on herself y all her staff shows her attitude!n i believe they r not lazy..they juz have too much to handle .. n sumtimes will mizz out sumtin, hasnt she been a ward staff b4)idiot!

Then she pull me to the staff room n tok .... ( finally!she realize many pple starin at me )
after sitting dwn she continue her bullshit lah!but nthin gets into my brain anymore...concentratin to control my tears onli.....she sux lah....

4:33 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

《Kiss Night》

心有千言万语

却说不出口

舍不得你走

还要握紧你的手

直到天长地久

一起分享这首歌

当爱来的时候

记得别放手

THIS LOVE IS 4 U

哪怕有多少痛

有我在你左右

陪你实现所有梦

BABY KISS NIGHT

下次再见

记得我们的约会

晚安

MY LOVE 再见

KISS NIGHT

谢谢你的爱

让我拥有这舞台

为你唱歌

心有千言万语

却说不出口

舍不得你走

还要握紧你的手

直到天长地久

一起分享这首歌

BABY KISS NIGHT

下次再见

记得我们的约会

晚安

MY LOVE 再见

KISS NIGHT

谢谢你的爱

让我拥有这舞台

为你唱歌

STAY WITH ME

请你留下来

感觉我的爱

在这样的夜晚

让我陪伴你作伴

别再想

明天还有什么事

等着你等着我去做

听我为你唱歌

KISS NIGHT

下次再见

记得我们的约会

对你说声KISS NIGHT

下次再见

记得我们的约会

晚安

MY LOVE 再见

KISS NIGHT

谢谢你的爱

让我拥有这舞台

为你唱歌

对你说声KISS NIGHT

下次再见

记得我们的约会

晚安

MY LOVE 再见

KISS NIGHT

谢谢你的爱

让我拥有这舞台

为你唱歌

WAH!nice song....my motivation song this week...

11:10 AM

uh hum uh hum......am having sexy voice now..haha!yesterday tok too much le.....
yesterday was my grad day....tian ar!bad experience man! they dun except me wearing the white cardigan ... so they lend me thier coat..which doesnt match my clothin AT ALL...n dun except me wearing my ladies slippers too...n force me to borrow shoes with others even though i have a small argument with them...haha!even the usher say my slipper actually look nice on me ok!aarrgghh!!!lecturers juz cant b flexible...
where the hell do i find sum1 same size as me at tat bloody moment man!!!lucky i call up widya to ask 4 help..n they were in Ms dorrine's office...she's an angel man!sweet enugh to lend me her shoes...though she ask me sum idiotic Qs b4 she lend me her shoes when i was in a rush!
she lend me a pair of black high heels shoes with a ribbon on top of it....n simply doesnt goes with my dressin again!oh god!have no chioce but to bear with it man!when i was up on stage...wrds in my heart were"ok..aiping ..walk slowly n...DUN FALL"the shoes are actually too big 4 me lah! idiot man..they mk me look so ....haiz!sad lah!i dun even feel like recieving my photos 4 my grad ..i sure look stupid 1!regret going !
enugh of the embarrassing stuff ...after tat went out with widya , sashi n tutie...racial harmony again!AS USUAL...juz walk ard at orchard and chat tellin each other how stress we r .haha!nurses normal conversation....once i reach hm ...call dear liao..wah!!!!yesterday we chat 4 .. almost 45 mins knw!!!keke...so nan de!3 more daz....got to prepare 4 wrk le!!!

10:04 AM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

2day is my grad day ... but not excited at all...but most of my fren r..i dunno y ...mayb my brain very different frm them..haha. To me ... graduation is = no sch anymore ... , more responsibility , more stress,less time with frenz..even bf ..., more independence ...haiz!sian lah!yesterday i dreamt of alot of pple ..esp my sec sch fren..like bren n ivy!is sum ridiculous dream lah...but most impt is they are in it.haha!i miz swimmathon,i miz the laughter i used to have in 5J , i miz hanging ard at TBP, i miz playin catchin with char n tiffany in sch..i miz dozing off in lecture hall, i miz playin bball with widya n all,i miz bullyin sum1 sittin behind me in pri sch..i miz him...i miz all of u !..the onli tin i m glad abt is ..i get to c all my poly frenz again today ...so i die die oso muz go..though i feel abit weak today ..argh!
yesterday was hell to me ..but lucky i tahan tru my wrk ... since morning oredi have bad sore thorat .. n felt weak..whole body aching...so i guess is juz not enugh slp ..so dun care abt it n still go wrk...n tat day was so packed man..SO many tins to do..neva even go 4 my break...n can really feel both of my legs going wabbling oredi..
after i pass over to my colleagues nxt shift .. i sit in the staff room...dun even feel like moving..plus no appetite to eat oredi...when i get hm .... suspect myslef having fever n went to tk my temp..oh god!its 37.8...so juz ate medi n went to slp.after i woke up ,my temp becum 38.3...its going up man..i dun mind my fever or sore throat ...the onli tin killin me is my bodyaches..ouch!terrible..got a call frm my dear .. after he put dwn ...my temp becum 38.5 ..haha!so bo bian .. go n c doc..after waiting 4 more than 1 hr in the clinic ... my temp spike to 39..scary man!think i have neva had such high temp b4 !he was nice lah..neva count my consultation fee.hahahah! 2day felt much beta after the medi...now my temp is..34.9..keke!weird huh!
k lah..got to go n bath n dress up oredi!haha!how i wish he is here with me ...i miz his shoulders man!keke!

11:30 AM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

tian ar!i m at hm AGAIN! i hate going hm on sat n sun.....i knw i very "pan E" but ... juz cant help it lah k!anyway yesterday n 2day ..... i felt really really xin fu .... 2day spend abt 12 hrs with my dear..but ... haiz !sad 2 say .... its NOT ENUGH! y time juz past so freaky fast ??? :(
2day went to .. buy tix frm Lido...we watch "Bug me not" ... erm....izzit tat fantastic lah...mayb buy vcd n watch beta..its not worth $9.50 loh...i thot it will b a very sweet show..but too bad lah...not really actually...my dear watch until wana close his eyes liao..haha!2day we took neo print tooo....he so kuku..1st time tk neo print ...lucky is with me...haha!but it doesnt turn out too nice..he lks gd in it ..but i m NOT!sad man!muz tk nxt time again...
then....went to esplanade too!!n SO QIAO...we get to c firewrks...OMG...its soooo nice man!though is juz a few mths when i last seen fire wrks ..but this time is with a diff person..n its so much nearer...n OF CRSE feelings is totally different too!!!how i wish time could juz FREEZE at that moment !
c!time juz flies like tat when we r togather...didnt do much actually rite?haha!am i too greedy?keke...aargghhh......i gonna slp soon....sum1 complain i got dark eye rings...:(

11:43 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

:) juz have a chat with my mum ...tellin her how sucky my ward sisters are!haha!expect SO MUCH frm us ... when we r still SO NEW!A baby juz born oso need time to learn how 2 crawl b4 he/she knows how 2 walk....now the sister expect us 2 fly....tian ar! i really think sister "J" is suffering frm dementia!coz everyday or instead everytime she tok 2 me she can expect different things frm me ...1st ,ask me 2 write the report as soon as i c the pt ... at least write sumtin 1st...the nxt moment she scolded me 4 writing the report SO early ... WTH!expect us 2 do EVERYTIN so precisely ...write report on time n in details...look after patients needs..ensure cubicle is neat n tidy..meet patients n their family psychologic needs...apply PBL in our wrk. n expect us to think n wrk like doctors..pass report on time n in proper order...n sumtin VERY ridiculous...expect us 2 go 4 our break!tian ar!she expect us to do SO MUCH ...n still got the chick to ask us go break.... sumore 1 nurse look after 18 pts k !now i onli look after 6 oso wana die liao...i really dun dare to look at my future man!we oso human leh....i think i will b admitted soon ...
tat day my fren kana stress by "J" .. n she cried...so poor tin..but "J" still say "c lah!now she cry i becum the bad person"shit man!pple cryin she still say this kana tin ...anyway is the fact wat...she has been gd b4 meh?she alwaz ask us 2 understand her role n situation..but has she ever put herself in our shoes anot???dementia pig!
haiz!sick man....i cant wait after 3 yrs!!!
anyway my mum has been complaining abt giddiness and she decide to go 4 CT scan......n she's damn worried abt it ..me too....pple..pray 4 my mama ok!
the only tin tat i m HAPPI n EXCITED abt is.....weekend is reachin!!!OH GOD!2moro is friday!!hahahaha!not happi coz i have BCLS test ..haha!but becoz sum1 bookin out!!!!listening to "our song"now.....cant wait cant wait...

7:32 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

haiz!as predicted!i m gonna complain again...sian leh!i think i will becum a complain queen soon...even denice oso cannot tahan me liao...rite den?
2day saw my schedule in the ward....tere was a big "PHEW" in me ..when i saw my name appearing in ward 47's duty roster .. at least is not picc's 1!haha!wat a relief!nxt i stria8 away search 4 my sat n sun schedule...n its really disappointing loh!sat i wrk noon shift ...sun morning shift!OH GOD!how 2 meet my dear like tat ?pathetic man!miserable....i dun tink tere's any honeymoon period 4 us!:(
now even sat n sun oso cant motivate me liao...SIAN!!!
we (me n my colleagues) are seriously so stress up...with EVERYTIN!things we need to catch up with..our checklist tat need to b accomplish, so many tests, need to deal with the rest of the staffs,patients n pt's family ...n now tat idiotic sister wan us to do PBL sumore...n we r the leader!WTH!cant she juz understand tat we r STRESS???i tot nurse suppose to empathy n b sensitive???we oso human k!If we end up in IMH...she cnfirm is 1 of the reason y we end up in tere...

5:22 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

:) now at least can smile a bit..hahaha!2day time seems to past faster .. abit!went out with sashi n widya .. tian ar!we got SO MUCH to complain abt our wrk man!haha!every1 of us got our bad experience in our wrk , we all agree tat we have regret our path of choosin this career .... i tink the gov need to reflect abit y so many pple refuse to tk up this profession man!haiz! its not the patient that mks things difficult..so the fellow colleagues loh!sashi get into sumtin tat doesnt require her 3 years of studies AT ALL...she's doing wat a clerk can do...widya get into sumwhere where she dun like..coz her colleagues are all naggy n nasty pple..they dun tk up responsibility n like to push blame to one another...it juz sux lah k!.. i believe all nurses are stress up..haha!lucky 3 of us got time to meet up n grumble 2gather .... if not all will end up having depression!
things aint TAT BAD 4 me now lah..at least i m TEMPORARY in general paeds ward!haha!...

12:14 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

2day as usual wrk loh..wat else rite?but 2day pretty no. of tins happen..haha!scary..have been shivering whole day man!1st tin tat start with my day is the staff tellin me my name not in their roster coz i suppose to go PICC ward again...so idiotic.i hate to listen to tat early in the morning..will ruin my whole day de...
then .. after tat my sister ask me n my frenz in to tok to the PICC sister...haiz!another cold sweat...standin in front of her listenin to her while she beat ard the bush was a torture 4 all of us .she ask weird Qs like... wat religion am i!haha!tian ar!i dun expect this kana Qs 2 cum out frm her mouth man!n she start askin my fren y she dun believe in God...i wonder if she is tryin to preach...
anyway after much of her beatin ard her bush..i love it when she mention tat she will onli emphasize on the 4 china gers wu is post to her ward..leaving me out was a pleasant tin!keke....does tat mean tat i m totally not connected to her??hahahaaha
then after tat scary moment ... the other senior sister ask me in to sister room n tok 2 her..which make my heart skip more ... haiz!as usual she say she tinks tat i m suppose to tk up the challenge to go PICC but since i request 4 stay in general ... she will grant me 4 this moment 1st...
hai hao!at least God did mk me have peace 4 THIS moment ....thank God thank God!

this 2 days (onli nite time) is a heaven to me....haiz!time juz past TOO fast at nite..i wonder y man!later gonna past tru tat idiotic AGAIN!:(

5:12 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

wahhh..let me count....another ..19 hrs ..tian ar!hao nan guo!!
nthin much this few daz...everyday waiting 4 my hp to ring nia!haha!2day had leture lesson again..canot tahan n fall asleep in 1 of it ..keke.
haiz!2moro going bk 2 ward again.....miserable....have been prayin very very hard these few daz .... of havin a smooth career ..hoping to get a gd preceptor , b wise n calm when makin decision 4 patient..learn to pick up things fast ..coz it has really no time 4 me to learn things slowly now..
have got SO MUCH to catch up....sumtimes juz felt so breathless..
tat day mei tok 2 me abt her experience durin her PRCP ..she oso damn stress lah!i really pity nurse man!if tere's 100% nurses ... cnfirm 100% of us r all stress 1...we alwaz joke tat we will meet each other in IMH.keke!
oh yah..she said tat she was rather stress n start tearin..she pray n read the bible..n tere's 1 verse tat strike her..sayin sumtin like"do not allow others to look dwn on u ,juz becoz u r young" SUMTIN like tat lah....
then it sumhow helps me abit..yah loh..though i m still new....but i shldnt b scared n let others lk dwn on me..muz tryin strive hard n show them i can do it !(easier to b said than done man)
i prefer havin lectures SO MUCH than going bk to ward...coz in lectures ..though got test all these..but i felt tat i m not alone being so stress...i felt much comforted!
if i m in the ward .. i felt helpless n VERY stress.n alone...i m so lost compared to pris n ting....coz i m so new to the environment....
n now they tell me tat i will b going to PICC ward 3 weeks later..which means i have to start adapt to the new place again..learning everytin new again.!!OH GOD!i hate this man!i seriously felt alone loh..
haiz!sorry...throwing complains here again!
k lah....dun care lah...walk 1 step c 1 step..i onli wan to wait until 2moro nite!haha

6:38 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

AlL tHiS pReCiOuS mOmEnT
wItH u By My SiDe
MuSt Be A gIfT fRm HeAvEn
ThAt'S hOlDiNg Me AlL nIgHt
I dOnT kNoW hOw I fOuNd U
i'M tHaNkFuL tHaT i HaVe
AnD tAt I hAvE a LoVe So TrUe
To HoLd To KeEp To ShArE

In My HeArT i CaN nO lOnGeR hOlD iNsIdE ,
aLl Of tHe LoVe I uSeD tO hIdE ,
i AlWaZ b ,WiTh U uNtIl ThE vErY eNd
In ThIs WoRlD ,tErEs No PlAcE i RaThEr B
u R mY lIfE mY sOuL mY gEr
N tRu It AlL i KnOw u CuM tO sEe TaT u R tHe OnLi 1 tIl ThE eNd

AlL mY fReNz ArD mE , sAy U bE gOnE tOo SoOn,
AnD tAt I'm GoNnA mK tHeM c,
We FoUnD oUr WaY bAcK hOmE,
iN mY hEaRt I cAn No LoNgEr HoLd InSiDe,
AlL oF tHe LoVe I uSeD tO hIdE
i'Ll AlWaZ bE ,wItH u UnTiL tHe VeRy EnD

In ThIs WoRlD tErEs No PlAcE i RaThEr Be ,U r My LiFe My SoUl My GeR
n TrU iT aLl , I kNoW u CuM tO c ,TaT u R aLl ThE 1 tIl ThE eNd
We'Ll AlWaZ bE tIl ThE eNd ....

( i LOVE this song....i MISS u .... )

8:15 PM

so xian!Is sat ... n i m suppose to study but.....haha!as usual lah..cant bring myself to.aarggh!!!mayb later ba...
Juz now went to temple with my mum n sis..she's so sweet n thoughtful ,she knew tat i was upset abt going bk to onco ward again...so pei me go pray again...i said most prob it cant b help oredi..but she said..mayb b more hardworking in prayin might help!haha!I was kana glad ..coz she shows she cares..
anyway i did ask my ward sis if she did help me ask if i could transfer ... but to my disappointment ..she said tat i am still wrkin in her ward ,so she juz wana leave it as it is 1st..which simply shows tat she didnt care / bother lah!SUX man!i hate NUH lah k..n makes me so confirm tat i wun't tk any advanced dip n wrk more 4 them ..
sickening!
anyway yesterday went to tekong!wwoo ...1st in my life time..haha!But i dislike tere ... :( although got alot army guys to c lah..hahahaha!the environment tere seems pretty nice ...
k lah..stop here....dun wana tok further abt yest trip...mks me think more onli..

7:56 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

.....i understand tat Life has ups n dwns...but ... THIS ups n dwns in my life came too fast tat i really dunno how 2 handle my emotions...the past 2 daz was like heaven ... but today is HELL to me !really SUX to the core.!!

pass 2 daz they inform me tat i m going to general ward... BUT today they say i m going to cancer ward again...WTH! They really really irritate me loh...i did try my best to except it n think +vely...but the attitude tat the bloody hell shows...n the feedback i get ...REALLY disappoint me n freaks me out!
Tried to hold bk my tears SO badly!tok 2 the other sister ...Beg her to help me ask 4 a transfer...but her promise to me was not promising at all...she seems like she juz say "ya ok"to an wei me .which is more hurtin!
I tried to ask another sister 4 help..but couldnt find her....so left a note in her room.B4 i went hm .. i go lk 4 her again..n to my deepest disappointment ,she has went hm..without even botherin abt my note i think!
i start to hate NUH...of the system n how things wrk...n wrse is hating nursing oredi..Being force to go sumwhere i dun like...

After tat went to meet sum1 impt in my life...throw out everytin i can...n start tearin..i swear i did try my best to hold bk..coz i m in the public...BUT cant lah..really cant..
i know i m weak ...n very -vely ...but i juz cant help it lah!sumhow 2moro he going NS ...tian ar!which mk it wrse ....

How bad can my life get???I juz pray really really hard tat God can do sumtin abt it...perform a miracle pls....i need u !

10:12 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

= b I WANA THANK GOD!!!!! I m really really sosososososososo greatful loh...tian ar!i dun think i deserve wat i wan but i still get it .... is juz more than miracles man!haha! i m in general ward n NO MORE oncology ward!oh god..actually i knew it yesterday ...but...i am still joyful abt it .keke!have been tellin my close ones how happy i m!NO MORE WITCH in my life!hahahaha! i m going to ward 47 general ...though is still not as fantastic as ward 48 ...,have heard lots of complains n nasty pple in tere...environment is very warm ...sister naggy ...have lots more patients.. n stuff... but its STILL a general ward!i m seriously contented enugh ...
ok alrite....everytin seems stable now...not as miserable...
Have had orientation in NUH past 2 daz...sit until my back aching loh...wat we have to do is juz sit n listen ...n ...yawn!hahahaa!But the pple tere have been pretty nice lah...esp my class so called "teacher"..haha!tats wat i call her lah..her name is "Cammie" a pretty , sweet,intelligent woman!really protray professionalism in her wrk man!
anyway we r given a whole stacks of notes n will b having tests!HAIZ!i thot once i get out of NYP ,i will b out of tests ..tian ar!end up still have all this shit! y m i so stupid to choose nursing in the past???i start doubting now...
it has been njoyable 2day sitting with mei n mei's fren...they r a batch of crazy...n sweet n pretty gers..hehe...glad to get to knw more abt them...
juz now went out with "B" though is juz walkin ard Orchard....as usual lah....s'pore too limited..BUT i m happy enugh ...keke...muz teasure all the times liao...:( onli 1 more day 2 go ...
i juz tk NS as a testin 4 me...everytin got to go tru test wat...no BIG DEAL!!!haha!
Juz pray tat everytin turns out rite ...
oh yah..CHAR!how r u ?me nowadaz can hardly cum online le..:( so u got to update me abt ur life tru ur blog or...call/msg me yah!u r alwaz on my mind ....

11:12 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

:( xiao bu cu lai........zhen de xiao bu cu lai....2moro is my dead line...
i haven play n njoy enugh...tian ar!den n mei :( we say wana go beach togather still haven go..i haven spend enugh time with u 2...
i haven spend enugh time with "B" too....how can like tat???? haiz!!wrong timing man!
juz now try 2 read tru the notes again .. .. HAIZ!is torturing loh.... sumore read on onco..such a dry topic..try to squeeze in but .....think onli 1/4 went in..
think studyin under stress tats y ...God really got to b with me man..n lucky i have "B" now too....i knew everytin will b fine..coz GBHD is gonna support me spiritually!haha!
anyway if it wasnt "B" think i will not smile today liao...haha!coz went to bugis the fd festival juz now..ALOT pple xia!but the food is ...*DROOL* oo.....haha!eat until so full tat i neva have my dinner!save $ leh..haha!

11:39 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

wwoo....feeling pretty fresh 2day ... coz it has been a long time since i lst have .. almost 11 hrs of slp!haha!yesterday juz get so tired tat fell asleep within 15mins..which is rare 4 me.haha!
Think i going to have PMS or wat...hai ya!bu zhi dao..have plenty of thots...n juz fear tat history repeat...WO BU YAO....hao scary ar!i dunno how 2 get rid of the phobia..its like a shadow following me....hope i will juz b too busy to think abt everytin after i start wrk..tats the onli gd tin abt wrkin.haha!
Mei juz ask me if i start studyin tat day,OH GOD...it has neva cum true my mind man...studyin again?haiz!sick man!n mks me feel stress now...studyin abt onco..sumtin tat i dun like is a 101% torture!
onli left with 1 more day ... :(

1:45 PM