Friday, April 30, 2004

h...2day i have my 1st paper..hai....hao....ba....at least its not TAT hard!oso not TAT easy lah....die,now no heart 2 study 4 my psycho..how?keep thinkin abt 2molo!haha!coz is sat!!!yeah!!!n P&W God again,can meet me frenz again!haha...has been so xian these few daz...study n study...ok lah,update u again,sis wana use com...tata

11:43 PM

yoyo!!!hehe,guess wat!i m in sch now,juz now meet jo,pass her calculator....now...i guess she shld b walkin into the sports hall liao ba,realy hope tat she can do well,hehe,God will guide her de!n later is my turn liao...dunno y 2day not nervous leh...mayb aaabbitbit onli lah....anyway God ,u still muz b with me k!haha!really hope that later the Qs wun b stranger 2 me....ok lah,me going 2 library 2 study liao,c u again!

9:50 AM

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

hey,pple,juz now i too bored...then cum online..explore abit,haha!then realize sumtin interestin in jo-n's blog...is call "touchin scenes"very nice leh!anyway the website is here http://www.donghaeng.net/english/main2.htm
when u all free,check this out k!very worth watchin!

11:56 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

hmm....2day ...study loh....study n study...going 2 have exam on fri liao,scary ar!haiz!so much 2 memorise...i study a bit liao,but still no confident...juz now lk tru the pass year paper..most of it dunno how 2 ans xia,ans not frm bk 1.aiyo!y like tat?haiz!nvm lah,hope tat day God will give me wisdom,haha!
got nthin much 2 update...coz my brain all abt exmas now...

2:24 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2004

erm...2day me morning went to orchard 4 sheperdin,hehe.really njoy the teachin by jo...coz i think sumhow it stir my heart ba...hmm..haha!this teachin mk 3 of us (me,mei n den) like feel guilty loh..but i think is gd know!coz it will mk us think n follow God even more.izzit it?hehe.Thank u jo!!!
after tat me go n meet mama ,she acc me go to c the chinese doctor at bukit panjang.the place so mafan ...still have to tk LRT ,then walk there,n is damn hot!c the doctor liao..he say my intestine too dry...hmm..very bad ar!!!then he prescribe erm..i think alot kinds of herbs n add them 2gather ba..they pound it like powder loh,n everyday have 2 drink 2 packets..it taste damn bitter !!:( i have to really force myself to drink loh,coz 1) i want myself to b cured! 2) it cost $50 !!!OMG!suck blood rite!my heart so pian loh,i wana pay myself but my mum pay 4 me...soooo sweet!but the doctor say muz go bk nxt week!!i dun want!so ex leh..but my mum insist!tian ar!my stupid intestine lah!
haiz!btw after tat went ard tat side shop..haha!my mum like so long neva go out liao,buy mangoes...!!!wah!!but i cant eat too much,so sad!then went to bukit panjang shop ,nthin much oso ...so went to makan instead,the kopitiam tere nthin much to eat want ....aiyo!xianz!anyway makan liao,...then go hm le...then force myself to study..lucky managed 2 study abit..now cum online to update u onli,hehe,after this going back to my bk liao!2moro got xtra lesson n dmm,so wun have much time 2 study ..so muz catch up liao,cya 2moro k!i miz u com!haha

10:51 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2004

wah haha!!!2day i really did njoy my day know!hehe!early in the morning wake up n pass up the results to chia chin chin 4 my frenz!after tat walk ard doby ghaut..tryin 2 find a cheap watch..but cant find :( so sad!i feel so uncomfortable without watch man!!!after tat go meet Den n the rest 4 CG!haha!when i c Den...keke,juz cant stop smiling..coz i imagine her as a isolated patient..hahaha!she really lks like 1 when she sit there beside the Big "box" !keke.
2day we have a great CG!coz every1 attend!full attendance..though mei was late a bit lah!she miz the game,haiz!we played 1) puzzle game 2)write ten commendments 3) find things on list.haha!our grp (me ,jo n sharon)managed 2 find all 1st!wow!then we 4fit them..haha!ask them do a hip hop dance n a gu niang dance.hahaha!so funny know!after tat ...is our prayers..then my holy com turn..oh my god!i think i make this holy com a very not natural n funny 1 loh!sooo pai seh!i was really nervous...i tink wateva i say neva mk them feel presence of God..n the bread was so hard loh...diao!haiz!nvm...i will improve nxt time ..............erm....hopefully ba!haha!then jo share the sermon!really njoy this Cg a lot!
after DPM is our service loh!jasmine share abt spiritual freedom ..she was tokin damn fast...at 1st got difficulty catchin up...but after tat ok liao...hehe.thank God!
after our dinner..we went to shop ard heeren..4 my watch again,haha!BUT dun have
:( then huimei mention tat she wana go jurong 4 her handph cover..so we went to jurong instead but jo went to meet i tink ... xueting ba...coz wana tk a ride hm.haha!btw we tok alot of rubbish in the trian 2day,..i guess 2day every1 very tired ba..start 2 b very lame!hahaha!
oh yah..jurong got no watch too...all kids 1..mei oso neva get her hp cover..she say lk very fake...
after tat we go hm liao.u know wat?i managed 2 get a watch at LOT 1!!!!haha!actually the shop closing liao,lucky last min i get 1.haha!though it neva really attract me alot..but nvm lah..have 1 cheap n nice watch can liao,haha!so happy!!!
i tink i today busy until i 4get abt my bloatedness ba.keke!now i feel it again..arrgghh!!!anyway 2moro me having sheperdin!!!wow!!!lkin 4ward 2 it man!!!after tat meet my mum go shop n do tui na at bukit panjang!so excited 4 2moro...
i really pray tat i have the heart 2 study frm mon onwards man!

11:37 PM

huh!!!!:( tian ar!!!my 1st day of camp 4th june..i GOT ATTACHMENT!!!OMG!how?arrgghhh!!!!i dun wana miz a single moment at the camp leH!$165 leh!!!n sumore surely will miz out alot no matter is startin or endin or middle of the program 1.damn!!!really pray that the letter wrks man!!let my lecturer's heart b soften !pls pls!!
anyway :(....2day i get my marks 4 my attachment....quite disappointed with it...coz neva get so low 4 a period of time liao.so discouraging,the lecturer so stinggy n once i step in the room..she say"aiping,how cum this time u so passive huh?"my heart is like ....piang!!!so heart broken..i wrk hard but she neva c ..then say til like tat..she oso neva really stay in the ward mah,then how can she like tat judge pple.so unfair!but nvm...coz i heard tat compare 2 others..my marks is consider ok liao.haiz!so nvm loh.
n 2day Kim ask me 2moro purposely go bk sch 2 pass up the results...so unfiar again..she is the 1 who wana collect all n pass 2 teacher..in the end i have to go,she can actually go 2day after her wrk loh,but she dun wan.sumore she say muz reach sch b4 10am loh.haiz!!!God !!i think He tryin 2 test me.nvm,i ren!
ssoo many complains today ar...but i have faith that it will all cum to a past with a smile! :) 2moro having CG n service!!yeah!my most blessed day of the week.keke.none of my fren cumin ..haiz!coz all wana study ..nvm,i understand...still got other weeks mah,dun worry.hehe.ok lah,stop here,tired liao...have headache 2day..hm..weird huh!

12:52 AM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

aarrgghh!!!!the only thing i can tink abt now is "i feel sososo bloated!"really!i feel tat i am like 2 mths pregnant loh!very xin ku u know!yesterday ate the laxative...but after tat still bloated.when bk 2day drink the ginger water,which my fren says it will wrk..but it doesnt again.then my mum gave me sum chinese medi (in powder form 1) then i drink tat again..but doesnt wrk again.after tat put stomach oil ...still doesnt!!!tian ar!!!sososo xin ku!i hope 2moro will b fine man!pray pray!
anyway...2day in ward,VERY free xia!nthin much to do,onli admission n admission,haha!i stand there like model loh,n keep singin songs to my BP machine..haha!my fren keep laughin at me...but really very bored loh,wastin my time tere leh!i really hope 2moro will have tins 2 learn but in an not pressurize way lah !haha!
wah!!!u know wat?denice organizing games 4 NYP3 this sat..haha!so excited 4 it,coz she 1st time organize games,keke.i wonder how she going 2 lead man!God give her the strength!hehe!she surely can 1 !jia you ar,den!
n me doing holy com..hehe..a bit nervous..hope they can really flow into God's prensence at that moment.hehe....
ok lah,God bless all of us durin this exam period k!thank u!

11:12 PM

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

hehe,2day wake up early at abt 8am.tired..haha!actually hai hao lah...coz meet sharon 4 sherperdin mah,she lk so lethargy 2day...but!she ask me alot of Qs loh.haha!but nvm,its alrite...it shows tat she wana know more!great!haha!
i was oso interested 2 know anyway ,got to stress jo liao,keke!anyway i ate at mac 4 breakfast 2day...the burger so hard n big loh..it makes me feel full until now know!so power ar!n i feel sosososo bloated again,sufferin xia!haix!after the sherpherdin ,me shop shop ard at jurong...coz still early mah,then bought a new hp casing,haha!i like !keke.
then reach NUH rather early...but sumtin bad happen nxt,SC's lost her learning guide ,her notes n clinical diary!so bad ar!she was so worried loh,almost all the nursing students (even ITE students) are searchin high n low for her loh.but still cannot find,we even suspect is the sister tk 1,haha!
after tat the lecturer came...so scary loh,every1 so worry 4 SC ,coz if lost she might need 2 replace the whole postin,so poor tin,n i kept prayin loh!after tat the lecturer really go n ask whether the sister tk a not,then the sister start searchin 4 the bk as well.haha!guess wat!it was actually under a patients cabinet,sumore is wrap nicely with plastic bag!so weird huh!
we suspect that is a a kid who play a prank on her,keke!but really thank God that he has been found!haha!i cant stop smiling when it was found loh....feel so great!c another funny miracle !keke
n...2day me get to know a ger frm ITE ,her name is yuqing(same as jo),she really lks like xinjie(mei's fren) ,n guess wat!!!she actually knows xinjie!haha!is her sec sch fren,soooo qiao rite!
another tink is my attachment fren call slivia actually knows joanne n don!they are frm the same pri sch!!wow!n wenbin is frm her sec sch!tian ar !i cant believe it,its such a small world!keke.
this postin really happening hoh!haha!ok lah,write til here k!cya!

11:30 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

hehe....2day nthin special lah...have a peaceful day in the ward....doing the same old routine loh.but today me da puo my mama's cookin to there 4 dinner.yummy!haha!so nice!n no need spend $.keke.
oh yah,there's 1 patient ...she onli 18 yrs old,but she's pregnant liao know!she says that she has bad record...as in not doing well in sch ,n addicted to drugs b4.then she keep tellin us"aiyo,so ar,beta dun have bad records ,if not u all will regret"hmm.....feel so sad 4 her,she so young ...but juz becoz of a few wrong steps ,spoil her future liao..haiz!
anyway 2day nthin much lah,everytin went well.thank God.haha!

11:25 PM

Monday, April 19, 2004

wah!u know wat???2day me seen 2 wonderful things!haha!not every1 have the previlege 2 c know!haha!feel so blessed!keke.i saw 1 lower segment ceserian section at abt ...3pm i tink.in short is call LSCS .it lks rather ...erm...like cuttin a pig,haha!sorry 2 say lah,but is like cuttin the flesh,layers n layers..then slowly reach the uterus.then the nurse n doctor pull the stomach...(ouch!!!) then tk out the baby..haha!sounds so fake rite!anyway it lks fake too..but when the baby is out..it seems like..(wow!really can tk out like tat ar?)haha!tats wat i feel loh.then the doctor sew the uterus ,when i see ar..i keep remindin myself,in future i wun want to have ceserian man!
then frm 3pm - 8pm there was no other delivery k!so sad!then i was really prayin hard that there will b 1 patient with normal delivery 4 me 2 observe!haha!i wana c a life being born in a normal /natural way mah!
then abt 9pm thank God ,there was 1 malay lady going 2 give birth,the nurse say at ard 9.30pm she will give birth loh,so me n my frenz decide to do OT,haha!we dun mind stayin later.keke.i tell u ar!when the baby is out...i felt soooo happy know!its totally diff feeling frm seeing a baby out by LSCS.coz i can c the mummy really keep perservering loh,she keep sayin that she want epidural coz she cant tahan the pain liao,but in the end she did it!!! she is so wei da!as in all mums are sooo wei da loh!wonderful !!marvelous!haha!

11:40 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2004

i start frm yesterday abt ...1am can?haha.coz i couldn't sleep..dunno y,juz feel damn hot,n i can feel the holy spirit keep askin me 2 read the bible.dunno y,try 2 ignore it...but the hotter i gets.so i surrender n went to read my bible.wah!i was surpise tat i actually read like..4 pages!haha!is alot to me liao i tink,keke.
n ...i feel tat God really speak to me tru it loh.as in it toks abt..perserverance in wateva i do,do it with faith,have the rite focus,he will neva forsake us.Is like every point hits me tat kind.really makes me thinks alot when readin,really thank God man!after readin i felt tat i have more faith in him liao,n i felt so refresh!as in....at least i can feel Him u c!haha,dunno u all understand a not...,but nvm,i know can liao,haha!actually wana cont readin but oredi 2am liao..so late ..so went to slp le.(so pple,pray 2 God tat he will speak to u ,pray it sincerely ...i believe he will show u the way when the time cums)
hm...2day abt noon time went to nexus n have my membership class...erm...actually able 2 learn abit as in as a member we muz really stay commited n willing 2 grow.durin the 1st half of the session when pastor ben is tokin ,i doze off....sorry...i really din mean it ..juz naturally,cannot control 1.but is onli mayb..erm..10% of it,tat i doze off lah.the rest still awake n listening.listening 2 wat he says..really find that they go tru alot of hardship when planting church,they onli start with 5 person initially know!n now becum like ..erm...so many pple.haha!
oh yah!the fd was great!very very nice!!!haha!mayb i was hungry ba!but really nice loh.after the 2nd session we went off liao,huimei was not feelin well the whole day,morning oredi got fever liao,so poor tin,think she over wrk loh.neva rest enugh.haiz!c wat attachment do 2 us!but nvm,is a testin mah!sure will pass 1.then tru out the session can c tat she really tahaning ...she like wana pengz liao...so worry 4 her,keep askin her she ok a not.haha!
mei ar!tk gd cr of urself k!remember 2 protect God's temple!(urself)jo ,den,sharon,jamie tk greatest cr of urself too k!!!luv ya!!!

11:10 PM

hm....2day in the noon i got a very confused feeling.actually i confess tat i am really not doing well this week..as in ...my spiritual life.mayb is becoz me got attachment ...then no time...or becoz i oredi very stress with attachment then lazy 2 serve God liao,haiz!i dunno oso,i juz dun feel God with me...i have been questioning myself or even God loh,tat idiotic satan lah,think he very hardwrkin loh.i feel like hiting his head!pokin his eyes!
i really thank God that 2day jo speak to me n den...after she tok 2 us...i felt ssooosoooo bad n disappointed with myself.initially juz felt confused...dunno wat 2 do loh..then i pray tat 2day's sermon really speak to me,coz i seriously need it!
then ar...to my surprise is abt havin a courageous life.
pastor jeff say keep our focus rite!i tink i cant feel God coz my focus is not on Him liao,n 2nd pt is count the cost...He focus on the pt sayin paul say "y are u feedin my fear n not faith?"yah loh...i alwaz fear in everytin ...liyan challenge me be CL...i worry tat i will not b able 2 lead well...i worry tat i got no time...i worry my frenship with my nyp3 frenz will becum shallow...i worry my fren will backslide...n alot lah.but y cant i be like paul?have faith loh...coz when i am in God he will b in me 2.rite?if i not willin 2 grow n serve him..how will my frenz grow?tat's so selfish of me rite!n God is so great n kind to bless me with great frenz...but when i need 2 serve Him ,i put Him aside n thot of my frenz.how i expect Him 2 bless me n my frenz again rite?tat's so selfish of me again.
n the 3rd pt is make the move!He says "tok is cheap,action is deep"yah loh...i think i need more action to show tat he is great mah.i neva c miracles in Him liao,coz i neva action wat,how 2 c write.think 2day's sermon really like hit me alot.
so!stupid satan stop irritatin me!!!
i xiang tong le..i will show u tat i grow k!idiot!
anyway after the service ,we went to makan at cuppage then after tat me,sharon,den,jamie went to clake quay ...we walk walk tere loh...nthin much oso..but its nice lah..coz got boat n river.haha!but den fell,haha!she neva c the small drain ,then kneel towards the river...lucky juz a small cut.phew!overall ..2day hai hao ba....but God help me k!stay focus!
jo..i am really sorry if i mk u feel disappointed in anyways...i know u have been struggling.i zhi cuo le!i will try 2 keep my focus at all time k!n surely the idiotic person will mk our walk with God a very rocky 1,but we will go tru it,amen !n God will bless nyp3's frenship even more!so mei n den !we work 2gather hao mah?juz really hope tat we will overcum this!

1:01 AM

Friday, April 16, 2004

yooooooooo!!hehe,2day is fri!!!cheers!wah!wait for this day until very xin ku xia,keke.yesterday me nite shift ,so neva cum online,hehe,tired mah.btw thurs is err....peaceful day,haha!the ward very free,nthin much loh,but 2day was great!u know y ???hehe,coz i am in nursery!haha!get to carry infants leh!!they are soooo cute!!OMG!n i feed n bath 1 baby!haha!though i made the baby a bit uncomfortable but at least she drinks,haha!aiyo,cant stand it....they are juz soo adorable!!!2day time pass so fast with them ard!haha!!
btw 2moro is sat liao!!going church!yeah!!but ...:( i ask sockching alot of time ,she wana cum anot,but she alwaz give me a ..very...unwilling face..so i tink most prob not cumin le.n when i ask sashi...she oso dun lk like she wana go,haiz!so sad!how?i got no1 to call liao.veron n aihui oso dun wana cum.....hm...wat 2 do?nvm...God..bless me with more frenz!hehe!
aiya...dunno wat 2 write le..so stop here k!tata

9:56 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

wahwahwah!!!u know wat?juz now cck black out,juz now heard frm news i think is frm bukit batok too...dunno where ba.wah lau!i was shock then the com suddenly shut dwn juz now,then everytin go off.scare me man,then i cant see a tin 4 like...5 mins i tink,haha!slow ba!i cant imagine how's iizit like without light man!
it was really hot loh,no fan or aircon...then start 2 worry abt those pple being caught in lift.they sure very scraed n stuffy in tere.so poor tin!like suana like tat.wat if she's pregnant or is a old lady?aiyo!haha,ok,tink too much again.btw me finish everytin liao...i mean my research n sheperd lesson,haha!very messy loh,but nvm,when i got time i will rearrange everytin.i first time do wrk onli with candles.wow!great experience,really wana thank God 4 inventin light n fan n aircon,haha!God ,u r great!
ok,wana slp liao,wan an!

12:30 AM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

hmmmm....2day ..erm...go shao mu again..but is iwht my father's side relatives.not tat close 2 them,so i was really quite loh.haiz!coz abt 3/4 of their conversation ,i dun understand loh,so sad!n....its so smoky n choky tere!cant stand it!
but is onli 4 awhile lah,coz my aunt do it fast,haha!after tat me go hm n study ...wana rush liao,coz 2moro start attachment again...aarrgghh!!!but nvm,God will protect me 1,n He will mk this attachment an enjoyable 1!amen !!
oh yah,juz now watchin the NKF ...feel so sad 4 all those pple,almost cried but my aunt at my huse,so bu hao yi shi..then control.hehe.but they really very very poor tin loh...hope miracles will happen 2 them man!haiz!ok lah,stop here,got to slp early 2day ..so tat 4 the rest of the week i will have energy!

10:45 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2004

jing tian ar...afternoon spend time at PS n chit chat at the burger king,eat the cheese nuggets,yummy!!!very nice know!keke.but very ex!
after tat go 4 PM ..then...service liao!!!haha!2day sockching came!wah!have a great time with her,seems like we neva meet each other 4 so long liao,but is juz 2 weeks ,haha!she still the same pattern loh,but today she abit not comfortable.actually i felt bad loh,mk her feel so...scared like tat,actually she dun wana cum 1,but i keep begging her.haiZ!i juz hate 2 force pple do tins they dun like!
i was glad when she went dwn n say the sinners prayer,but actually she doesnt knows tat after sayin the prayer is a christian liao.she thot tat is juz a prayer 2 bless her.hmm....when she goes dwn tat time,i oredi know tat she doesn't mean to go dwn 1,juz got the feeling loh,haiz!dunno how 2 say lah.tat's y i neva really rejoice when she get dwn.is not tat i dun have the faith tat she wun rvc christ,is juz tat i JUZ can feel she doesn't intend to b a christian AT THAT MOMENT.but nvm!coz i'm sure in future she'll b 1!hehe.i really want to c her in heaven leh!
btw 2day i felt sooo blessed too,keke!coz ah mei give me a deco tin,n say i'm an angel.keke,so sweet of her!n sharon give me a cross pendant,sock ching give me a pair of earrings!wow!my frenz are so loving ar!haha!hey,thanx pple!love u all soooooo much!

11:02 PM